Saturday, February 2, 2013

Inspiring Tale.....


It has always intrigued me that I feel so good after exercising and yet it is a struggle to get my butt over to the gym.  I rejoined the gym since I know from experience that the only way I will have any substantial weight-loss is to eat less and move more.  So, for the past 6 days I have gone and I feel great!  I go before work which means getting up at 4:45 a.m. and doing 30 minutes of elliptical.  I started going last year, but I was not dedicated and only went sporadically.

When I started up again, funny thing was it was the same people that were there last year.  It really made me realize that they have made this a lifestyle.  Did I mention I am the youngest person there most mornings.  These dedicated people that get up at 5:00 a.m. every morning are 55+ years old.  One day I walked into the gym with one lady that is very obviously a runner and we exchanged pleasantries.  I said, "Good morning, how are you today?" And her response stunned me.  She looked at me and said, "I don't know yet, I really don't want to be here this morning."  I was shocked, she went on to say, "There have been times that I have gotten all the way to the parking lot and turned around and went home."  I found this so relieving since I have always beaten myself up for being "Lazy" or "Not committed" because I struggle to get up and get to the gym and here is a women that is there everyday and she struggles also!

It was like a moment of clarity for me, I will most likely never feel like going to the gym.  However, I do feel that I never not want to feel like I felt this week.  I am happy, relaxed, energetic, focused and I have been sleeping well so I feel rested.  So, if this is what I have to do to feel like this then so be it.  

I lost 6 pounds this week, my goal is 3 lbs per week for the contest so I am off to a good start. I am doing 1200 calories and 30 minutes of exercise 6 days per week.  I can almost taste victory!  

Does anyone else feel this good just from exercising? 

Wednesday, January 23, 2013

Maybe $10,000 will do it for me.......



Well, here I am.  44, 220 pounds, and tired.  I am Jennifer, I am a mom, I am an educator, I am a wife and I love to eat.  I did not start to struggle with my weight until my early 20's when I got married.  It started slowly out of stress of a wedding and a miserable job.  It turned into a 20+ year battle of the bulge.  I have tried just about every diet you can think of and many have had limited success.

Three years ago something pushed me to join a gym.  Now, mind you I have joined many gyms over the years, but for some reason it was different that time.  I was just turning 41, in a 18 year marriage and I was not feeling so good about myself.  So, I just started.  Just like that, I started going to the gym in the morning before work.  I went about 4-5 times per week, nothing too hard mostly the elliptical for 30 minutes.  But what I found is I felt better.  Not just physically, but mentally.  I started feeling happy and relaxed.  I slept better and just started to eat less.  No special diet, just less.  And just like magic the weight started to come off.  A total of 53 pounds and for the first time in almost 20 years I was able to buy normal size clothes in almost any store I wanted. (Not sure what the deal is with Hollister not carrying XL?)

Well, fast forward 3 years.  Over the past three years I have been divorced, remarried, promoted and sick.  I stopped exercising when I met my husband.  Just like it started, it stopped.  And the weight came back, all 53 pounds of it.  Only now I am older, more tired and less motivated.  I have a wedding to attend in June and I am dreading looking for a dress because of my size, 18/20.  However, today I opened and email from our Risk Management person to find and ad for weight loss teams and the top team gets $10,000.  So, I decided, why not?  I am desperately trying to find the motivation to get started and I really need to make a change for my health, my daughter who is only 9 and learning from me and for my state of mind.

So, Friday I weigh in.  I am hoping to find 4 others to be on my team and I am hoping to win some cash but what I am really hoping for is to find a group to help keep me motivated.  There is my story, not a super interesting one, but probably not very uncommon.

I am left wondering, how many times do I need to make the same mistake before changing the course of action?